This past weekend I got to take part in one of the many perks of my job. I was one of the chaperones of an annual weekend trip here at Quisqueya Christian School to the mountains of Seguin. I have been on some beautiful hikes here in Haiti, but never as far as Seguin. As Student Activities Adviser, part of my role here at QCS is to plan trip such as this one. I have to say I learned a lot through trial and error…
Like having the donkeys sent down and a price negotiated ahead of time…oops. But, like everything in Haiti, we figured it out without much stress (and with the help of one of our amazing parents)! Loading all of our bags onto donkeys we set off for what we thought was an eight mile hike.
The sound of laughter, the excitement that can not be contained on your face, life is full of blessings…
The groups were spread out over the hike, but with a route carved into the side of the twisting mountains we were able to see one another, even those a mile or so ahead of us! I am still not sure if looking up was a good thing or not at times; looking up and seeing mountains as far into the distance as you could and hearing “we are going over that mountain”
“Umm, Im sorry, but WHAT?!?!?” is what I was thinking in my head. Trying not to show my complete exasperation and exhaustion to the students we were trying to encourage. “Oh yeah guys, we totally got this!!”
The whole trip was breathtaking to say the least (and yes, I do mean that both ways). I tried many times to capture the views in a photo, coming up short every time. There are sights of this country that are something only to be seen with the eyes, no photo will ever do it justice. As I stood eye level with clouds, I looked around to mountains on every side as far as I could see.
I mean, hopefully we do…
There were no cars, no noise and stifling air of the city; only beauty, beauty beyond words. Blessings beyond compare…
As we huffed and puffed up, I made sure to try to point out and appreciate as much beauty and blessings from God as I could. Every flower, every berry and tree, little huts made of stone, every rock. It was all beautiful.
But none of it was as beautiful as my seniors. They are so special to me and I am so proud of them. Coming up a two mile hill (9 miles in) and meeting the front group coming back down to help the rest of us, what a blessing. They were encouraging to one another, cheered each other on and waited until every one of their classmates made it to the top.
Before arriving at our destination, we had a three mile hike through the pine forest. It was a necessary break for our feet and legs after nearly nine miles of up, up and more up (in case you are bad at math like me, what we thought was an eight mile hike was actually a little more than 11-oops!)
Beauty is everywhere.
The horses, grass on our feet, waterfalls, the music of nature; more blessings, everywhere blessings…
After settling in and taking the coldest shower I think I have ever taken in my life we gathered together for a meal, debrief and devotion. Over the course of the weekend we read through and discussed the entire book of Ecclesiastes. We focused our weekend on wisdom and leaving for college with wisdom in the hearts of our students. Here at Quisqueya I am blessed to have the opportunity to continually speak wisdom and truth into the hearts of our students.
Learning with my students, watching them understand, falling in love with God each day; more blessings….
During our first debrief everyone went around and shared one thing they enjoyed about the day. I so love hearing the way our students care for and about one another.
The second day a causal hike to a waterfall and cave turned into an extreme three mile adventure down a river bed.
“Since no one knows the future, who can say what is to come?” Ecclesiastes 7:29
Although I was worried at times, like when the water was up to our shoulders, it turned out to be an amazing time for our students! I can’t imagine the day going any better. I love the plans the Lord has that far exceeds ours. The debrief that night was one of my favorite moments, asking the kids “Where did you see God today?” I loved their answers, but mine was my favorite. I saw Him in you! In your strength and enjoyment, your complete appreciation for the beauty around you.
I am blessed by each of you.
They took the time to look around and appreciate the moss and the water. They took the time to stop and wait for each other, to help one another down the river. I am so proud of the people they are becoming and honored to be a part of their stories in a small way.
It is the company we surround ourselves with that make us who we are. Our experiences, our reactions, our joys and laughter together, how we conduct ourselves in difficult situations. We set the bar high for ourselves and for those around us.
I am proud of you all!
Ecclesiastes gives us much wisdom and I am grateful to have shared that with our students and those with me in the mountains. Be joyful in your day. In the warm hike through a wooded forest and in the freezing river. Be grateful in your day. In the sights of the mountains around you and in the road that never seems to stop going up or ending. For there is much to learn from every situation.
“When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider;
God has made the one as well as the other.
Therefore, you cannot discover
Anything about your future.” Ecclesiastes 7:14
This weekend I was reminded of the power of love through the power of our words. Often we get caught up in our busy day to day lives, we can forget to tell someone we love them. We can forget the power in speaking these words to others.
Have you ever stopped to focus on someone else in the middle of your day? Written them a note or dropped them an email or text just to say “Hey dude, thinking about you. Love ya.”
Well, let me tell you, I have been on both ends of that message and as the receiver during a time of need, it was greatly appreciated. I have been reminding my students about the power of their words. We never know what another person is going thru…
…when they might need to hear “Hey, thinking about you today.” Or “Love ya.”
Maybe moving away from my family has brought my appreciation of words to a new level. Or maybe it is from the loss of so many loved ones, so many things left unsaid.
I try hard to never go to bed mad, to never leave things unsaid.
The power of our words is important. Love, honesty, sincerity. Kindness matters, and it just might be your words that are a breaking point in some one else’s life.
I hope we can all choose the words that show the love of Christ today.
Before you speak, think. Be selfless. Show kindness. Love with your words.
“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.” Colossians 2:13
Thankful for friendships near and far who help me understand the power of love through their words.
To my cousins, I love you crazy fools!!!
To my roomie, thank you will never be enough, I love you.
To the friends of my soul, thank you for showing me the meaning of friendship.
To those who are left out…
to the twins and lynds, all of my moms and dads, peanut in Minnesota, the one whos home shares a wall, shares a name, share my blood, to those who have crossed my path today, yesterday and tomorrow…
you are in my heart and I love you. I am no further from you than across the water.
The Bible says the greatest commandment is:
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbors as yourself.’” Matthew 22:37-39
Today I am trying to do just this, Love God. As a follower of Christ this is something I try to do with my heart and actions each and every day, love others. Love them at work. Love them at home. Love them on the beach, or down by the sea. Love others, right where they are, right where I am. I won’t say it’s always easy, but it is my calling. It’s all of our calling.
BE LOVE. Love God, Love others. We don’t have to go anywhere to show the love of God. I don’t have to be called out onto the mission field, or tent cities and orphanages. We can be the love of the Lord and allow it to shine through our hearts where ever we are. Any place, anywhere, any time. BE LOVE.
I have two very different blogs that could fit under this title today. I am choosing the one that brings me joy, not the hardship that has crept its way into my thoughts yet again. That one I want to tuck away, tuck away and walk away from if I could, but I know I need to face that demon-and I will, but for this weekend I am tucking it away and choosing joy.
So here is my joy-FULL “Help.” post.
Here at Quisqueya I am teaching Sign Language 1 and Senior Transitions. My ASL 1 class has 11 students in it-all seniors. My Transitions class has 19 students in all of the seniors here at QCS. It’s no secret I love my classes, but even more than that, I love the opportunity to teach my student….and learn from them. As I walk this journey with the Lord, as I learn how to be a follower, I am blessed to count them as part of this journey.
In ASL class one of our new vocab words this week is “Help.” We were reviewing our words, meaning I already taught them the signs the day before. With my back to them, I asked “OK guys, whats the sign for ‘help’?” Turning to look at their answers, I had an itch, I was scratching both sides of my head in a bit of vigurous motion. One of those killing two birds with one stone moments, scratching my head and fluffing my curls.
Well, when I looked at my students, they were ALL, everyone of them doing the same thing-scratching the sides of their head.
I busted out laughing, “Guys, WHAT are you doing?”
“The sign for ‘Help’ Miss, this is what you are doing.”
Apparently they had forgotten what they learned the day before, the correct sign for “Help.”
Oh the joys of teaching.
Our theme here at Quisqueya is “Following Jesus” We have talked a lot about who we are following, how to be followers; disciples. For me, I often think of how I am teaching as I am learning. As teachers we are leaders, we are examples. Our students, our own children, are all watching us. Watching our example. And if we aren’t careful, they might follow the wrong example.
I want to “help” my students be followers, but that comes with teaching them the right signs, by being the right example.
(Be sure to smile at some one today, it might be exactly what they need)
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!”
Dr. Seuss wrote these words in his famous book Oh, the /places You’ll Go! and they are read by graduating High School Seniors everywhere. I got this book from my mom at my High School graduation, flipping through the pages and thinking about my future, it made me cry. I took it out to read a time or two during college, maybe once more as I packed it away before I came down to Haiti, but not since. Working at a school Dr. Seuss seems to have found his way back into my life.
Friday wasn’t such a great day for me and I can tell you Dr. Seuss and his fantasy land of Thing One and Thing TWO were very far from my mind. My students however were very much everywhere I turned. Thank goodness for the Chinese who first invented sunglasses to hide emotion because my teary eyes were masked.
I had two classes to get thru to finish out my day and I could not fathom how I was going to pull it off. As soon as I turned around to walk out the gate to go home and eat my lunch in solitude BAM, there was my answer. I was face to face with a student, big grin on his face, ghosting me all the way thru the gate. I couldn’t help but laugh. Turning, the only thought in my head “these kids, Lord, thank you for these kids.”
They are my life, they are my joy and I am ever thankful for them. They get me through my day time and time again.
And when the path gets dark, as we know it eventually will:
“And when you’re in a Slump,
Youre not in for much fun.
Is not easily done.”
Luckily I don’t have to un-slump myself. My students are there to make me laugh, my friends are here to offer words of encouragement, and my heart stands strong to rest in my faith.
“Truly my soul finds rest in God,
my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation,
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken.”
I am in the center of His will. I put both my fear and my trust in Him and I will never be shaken.
When I doubt and fear creeps in, God sends me countless reminders and blessings that help me realize I am exactly where I am called to be. My students. Living, breathing blessings. Joy. Happiness. Hope.
I am so blessed. I think about Ann Voskamp and the challenge of 1,000 blessings I am on.
My students, Lord, I thank you for the blessing they are to me. I thank you for their inquisitive minds, their expressive spirits, their excitement, their drive, their joy, their purpose.
And so I pick myself up and I go to class. I get through my lesson and decide I need to take some time to get into real life with my students. We put the books away and we talk. I pull up the encouraging words of Ann and read them with my students; Why You’re never ever really a failure.
I read this as part of my morning devotions: “ If you’re not willing to look goofy in the eyes of others at some point, you will never make it to your God-sized dream.” Ann Voskamp
I thought of my students, preparing college applications, writing essays, discussing their futures with each other, their parents, themselves. Afraid of failure, afraid of their futures, afraid of the un-known. But we can’t be afraid of the un-known. Being afraid of fear, is that possible? We can fear ourselves, we can fear others; fear the future, fear our fate, but are we just getting in the way of ourselves.
I thought of myself, am I my own worst enemy? What am I so afraid of? The Bible tells me to fear God; am I fearing God or am I too busy fearing myself?
“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge.” (Proverbs 1:7) Ecclesiastes concludes “Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the duty of every human being.”(Ecclesiastes 12:13) I have no one to fear but the Lord. And yet, too often I allow the fears of this world to creep in. Death, failure, sin, faults, pain…
“I’m afraid that some times
You’ll play lonely games too.
Games you cant win
Cause you’ll play against you.”
Seuss has it right again. I’m in my own way.
And so I stood in front of my students and tried to hold back my tears. I left my fear of what they might think of me and I opened my heart to them. When it was over and I told them what they mean to me. I see hope in them. I see joy and beauty and bright futures. Peace. God has put me in this place, with these people, these students, these faces. Sometimes it’s not so easy and we fall into a slump.
“Except when they don’t.
Because, sometimes, they won’t.”
“And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.”
And I drift back to Seuss and his kind loving words:
“Somehow you’’ll escape
All that waiting and staying.
You’ll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.”
And at times I might feel it’s just me and alone, I am reminded to look up at the bright light shining…. I am never alone, for I walk in the light.
“For you, God tested us;
you refined us like silver.
You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs.
You let people ride over our heads;
we went through fire and water,
but you brought us to a place of abundance.”
Psalm 67: 10-12
I can tell you of Friday I was not alone. I felt God in my heart and got hugs all day long. And to my students I want to say,
“Your mountain is waiting.
So….get on your way!” Seuss
I am so proud to call you all mine!
I have started and re-started this blog about 50 times since my last post. I write things down, I embrace my thoughts and my feelings and flush them out into my computer, but they never seem to make it up. Its past time I got past all that. People say starting is the hardest part. I know when I decide to run, the toughest part is getting out there and starting, once I am in it, everything is fine. Well it’s high time I got back on here and just started. So this is both my apology for being so delayed in starting and my start. So…more to follow.
I guess time has gotten the best of me, I look back on my last post and realize its been almost four months! I feel like a slacker, to those of you who have always been dedicated readers, I apologize!!!
A major update is needed….
I am still in Haiti, happy and healthy as ever. In December I made another change, leaving an unhealthy work environment, deciding if life was keeping me in Haiti or pulling me out. In the end the answer is always clear and Haiti is still home.
I am now teaching at Quisqueya Christian School, a venture that is completely new for me. I wish I was more diligent about posting and could say how excited I am for the challenges, new experiences and developments that lie ahead-but the reality is I have already lived through the last four months, I can only go back and recount it.
To the best of my ability I will try to retell the months that have passed, the lessons I have learned.
Although it has only been four months, I have a long path ahead of me on this new journey. I am excited and nervous in the same breath.
Last week I was subbing for a senior English class at one of the American schools in Haiti. The sub plan was to go over with the students Robert Frost’s poem “The Road Not Taken”. I know I have read this poem, but (sorry Mrs. Brooks) I don’t remember analyzing it in high school!
“THE ROAD NOT TAKEN”
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both,
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Through as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
It seemed fitting as I have some big decisions coming up…
The students and I read through the poem together and discussed it stanza by stanza. We evaluated each of the roads; talked about if they thought one was better than the other, did one seem more interesting? Finally we talked about how the traveler made up his mind and how the poem relates to our own lives.
The last question on the sub sheet I was to ask the students was this:
“Why did he lie in stanza four?”
Well I can tell you I did not ask the students this question, because after reading through the poem a number of times, I could not figure out the answer. How did he lie??? I wasn’t really sure…”Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.” He took the road less traveled; don’t we all take the road less traveled by at some point?
When the teacher returned (a teacher with a degree in English I just want to add), he discussed the poem with me and helped me understand it a bit more. I had a whole new understanding.
“Then took the other, as just as fair,”
“Thought as for that the passing there had worn them really about the same,”
“And both that morning equally lay”
After discussing and re reading, I realized the above three statements lead the reader to believe-although the paths may look different-they were traveled just as equally!
“I took the one less traveled by.” There’s the lie. The roads where traveled the same. “just as fair” “about the same” “equally lay”
So why is it so often boastfully said ‘oh I took the road less traveled’?! How do we really know? When time comes to make those big decisions, we feel we have discernment, we are confident in our decision; but can we really say we are taking the road less traveled?
Sometimes only when we are past our decisions and the road has been chosen, “Somewhere ages and ages hence;” after our choices are over and lived out we are able to look back at our decision and say we came to a fork in the road and not knowing it at the time, “I took the one less traveled by,”
As life continues, we come to new decisions, “Yet knowing how way leads on to way.” One path brings us to the next one, and again we are forced to make a decision.
Why do we want to be able to say we chose the one less traveled by? To show we have courage, to blaze our own trail? I suppose the motives of each of us are different, no two snowflakes are made the same. We each look down our roads as they divulge before us and make our decisions, leaving behind us “wanted wear” of our paths.
Whatever the road we choose, no matter right or wrong, one thing will always be the same-our choices, each and every one of them will make all the difference,
“And that has made all the difference.”
Whether we take “The Road Not Taken” or “the one less traveled by” we must be confident in our decision, in our own ability to discern which path is right for us.
For me, I trust God, trust the plan He has for me and know that for that reason, whatever path I choose will be the right one.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”
Good luck to you in your decisions, I hope you make the right ones as I pray for myself I am making the right ones…
I ended up not having much of a Thanksgiving and I started feeling sorry for myself last Thursday. My family was together in NY and my sister in law was sending me pictures, I was missing home more than ever before.
This longing for home made me start second guessing myself and my future choices!!! I am in a major decision making time in my life right now and smack in the middle of it I start thinking to myself ‘well I miss home and family and friends, I guess it’s time to go back??’ WHAT?!?? SERIOUSLY?!?!
So I miss some peeps that I saw a month ago and will see soon for Christmas, and that means I have to feel sorry for myself. Snap out of it!
I sort of feel like a hypocrite, I have so much to be thankful for and because I wasn’t able to have a traditional Thanksgiving means I forget about all that?! Come on!!! Snap out of it!
Thanksgiving day/weekend is a great time to spend with family, and I am sorry I missed out on that. BUT, I have a lot more to be thankful for and I need to remember that! The entirety of my life has basically been one series of fortunes and blessings after another. Not to say I have not had struggles and hardships, but even those times I must remember to be thankful-for if it was not for our difficulties we would not be strengthened.
Here I am, less than a week after thanksgiving reminding myself to be thankful. I am out of my slump and back to the reality of the decisions I have to make. Thankful for the doors open in front of me and the opportunities that lie ahead…
Thankful I snapped out of it!
I guess it’s sort of fitting to post about the spirit of being thankful on thanksgiving, but I have been feeling extra thankful these days, extra joyful; extra fulfilled.
I have been reading a great book this week One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. It reminds me of the inspiration and challenge in finding joy in your every day; every step of life, ever new leaf, every flower, every mud puddle and scent of fresh cut grass. The difficult is to find the joy among our challenges, but it’s there, the ever-present joy of life.
The loss of a job that brings new opportunities.
The end of a relationship that harvested fond memories and new experiences.
My difficulty is being thankful for each of these things. When situations are stressful and difficult, I forget to be thankful to have had the opportunity for the situation in the first place. I live a very blessed life, I have family and friends who love me and make my days brighter. I have a soft pillow to lay my head on at night and roof to protect me from the sun and the rain. When I’m sick I’m well taken care of and I never go to bed hungry or without a glass of water.
Food. Shelter. Water. Isn’t that what we were taught were our necessities; our bare essentials.; mine are taken care of above and beyond. So for this thanksgiving, I want to give thanks to all the small things, the hidden things, those that if not pointed out may be over looked. The blessings in the trials.
The soft smile of a child that says ‘thank you’.
The simple treasure of water, clear and clean running from a kitchen sink.
The gift of a hug from a friend, telling you without any words…I’m here.
There truly are a thousand gifts in each day.