Trust; life is happening just as it should…

…easier said than done. I guess I’m not sure where to start; I should go back and explain my current situation a bit as it has changed again, but I am going to save that for later. Instead I am going to pour my heart out a bit…

I find myself praying for guidance and patience these days. Life has been taking me in an interesting direction for a while now; sometimes I really do feel I am just along for a ride through a crazy fun house. Surprising situations come up and exciting doors open before me. I guess that’s all part of this journey we call life.

Today is Todd’s birthday, a great cause for celebration! He certainly did celebrate his 24 years on this beautiful earth-making today bitter sweet. Wonderful because we all had him for 24 years; yet awful because as the sun continues to rise on our days, his are over. I guess I’ll add strength into my prayers…

This morning at church Pastor John talked about living a purposeful life…it was one of those mornings when I felt like it was a message directly for me. Of course it spoke to much of the congregation, but it really hit home for me. It spoke to me in each area of my prayers; guidance, patience and strength.

“The purpose of life is to live a life of purpose.” –Richard Leider

Above was the quote on the screen at the beginning of the message.

Pastor John asked; “How do we live our life? What is our purpose on this earth? If you knew you had a terminal illness how would you live out the last days of your life?”

…the last one stung a little…

A question I often as myself; luckily I had a great teacher who taught me to be conscious of this question without even realizing it. Even before the cancer Todd always lived his life like it could be over before the sun came up.

I try my best to follow in his footsteps, living each day like it could be my last. Loving each person around me like I might never see them again. Todd taught me how to appreciate what I have and those I have in my life. I’ll admit I often fall short, but I try my best.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways trust in him and he will make your path straight.” –Proverbs 3:5-6

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” –Jeremiah 29:11

“In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” -Matthew 5:16

All of the above verses were discussed this morning at church; I took a few notes based on my interpretation of the message and the verses:

  • I can’t do this alone, and I’m not. I need to rely on the Lord, lay it all down for Him.
  • I have to remember to trust in Him and His plan.
  • God created everything and thus has a plan for everything; all things are part of his plan.
  • We are living this life in partnership with God; trust in that partnership.
  • Part of the joy of this life is listening to God’s direction!
  • We should be a light to others, lifting them up in good times and bad.

I’m still not sure where this path is taking me, but the unknown is part of the excitement, part of the joy. Everything is part of the plan and so I must not worry, there simply is no need.

People come in and out of our lives; some continue down our path with us, others were only meant to walk with us a short time. I’m not sure why Todd was taken so early from this earth, as hard as it is, I have to trust it was part of God’s plan. I often think life isn’t fair, but I suppose it is not supposed to be. There is a plan and in that plan everything is happening just as it is supposed to.

Happy Birthday Todd, always in my heart


Posted on November 11, 2012, in 2012 and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. yourothermotherhere

    That was a very nice post.

    • As usual Tara you are wise beyond your years, I think. I don’t actually know, as I have yet to figure any of it out. Thanks for thinking of Todd and keeping his memory alive. Hope all is well with you and that life is treating you well. Love you girl! The Momma

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